I’m that kind of person who doesn’t care anymore
I’m also that person who cares too much.
I don’t care if you think I’m pretty or not
But I don’t slack off to much with my appearance.
(more) I don’t care anymore is you think I’m nice or not
But I try my best to accommodate your wishes.
I don’t mind arriving early or late
But I’m always ready on time.
It doesn’t matter if I’m smart or dumb
But I always do my homework and study for tests.
I don’t mind being abandoned anymore
But I’ll hold you with all my strength.
I don’t care if I live or die anymore
But I won’t pull the trigger or fight for my life.
I’m not clinically depressed
But I wish there was a reason I feel like this.
Because I’m tired.
I’m tired of caring and not being cared for.
I’m tired of trying and never being enough.
I’m tired of reaching for people who won’t reach back.
I’m tired of doing what you like and never getting what I like.
I’m tired of speaking and not being heard.
I’m tired of respecting and not being respected.
I’m tired of never getting my achievements acknowledged.
I’m tired of fooling people with my smiles.
I’m tired of being alive and not living.
I’m tired of being dead and not resting in peace.
I'm tired of knowing there's something wrong without being able to correct it.(less)
I feel like everything tumbles and falls.
It doesn't matter how strong my foundations,
How fortified my base,
I lose the battle with nature
And crash to my inevitable death.
So don't ask me whats wrong,
(more) Because you can already see
That I'm an ever changing mess,
Falling deeper into chaos,
Never a chance to arise. (less)