There's no reality harder to look in the eye than the reality that we are all broken. We're no better than the glittering shards of glass embedded into our pavements. Hidden by sour wads of gum, footprints, shoe bottoms, trails of scum. Only really emerging when there's sun. We(more) don't believe in fairy tales anymore. We don't expect happy endings. We kneel and pray that our second and third marriages will work out, and that his kids will get along with our kids. We silently hope that our fathers will come home, and that our mothers will leave the cheap wine alone. We look forward to streams of sweet nothings, because we don't believe sweet somethings ever existed. "You better take what you can get" Mama said, "this world ain't as big as it seems". And then you thought to yourself "Love is not the purpose of life. It's not. It's not. It never was". There's too much pain in this human condition.
She had a long journey in coming here. She struggled and fought her way to this very spot. Neglected from birth, the moment she learn how to gain attention was when the abuse started. In older years this led to more abuse of chemicals. She struggled against others, and(more) herself. She fought the world even as she carried its weight on her shoulders.
Step by step, she moved closer, slowly overcoming every obstacle in her path. They all do. They all struggle and fight and work their way to this point.
Here. This dark abyss at the end of it all. This is the point they all appear at when it is said and done. This blank expanse of sweet nothing. (less)
He props himself above her, looking down at her while she sleeps. He loves to see how peaceful she is while she sleeps. So often during the day she is stressed out and tense, but when she sleeps all of that goes away.
(more) He kisses her forehead and whispers sweet nothings in her ear, and she smiles in her sleep. In the morning she'll tell him about the great dream she had that night, and he'll smile and nod his head.
He laid back down beside her, and pulled her close to him.
He wished making her smile was that easy in the day.(less)