You crawl under my skin
Invading my thoughts, my space, my breathe
You take control of me and my thoughts
Become our thoughts
Distance makes you detestable
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Easy to hate, as I fixate on the things
That make this separation easier
But you won’t let my monster
Live the myth I’ve created
Conflicted by the feelings I can’t resolve
Because your everything and nothing
And this loneliness is nothing and everything
Eating away at the resolve I thought I had
You see through my deception
And the mask of crinkled eyes, laughing teeth
You make me feel inadequate, acts
Dictated by desperation to prove
I don’t need you
But there’s a chasm
Where before there was contact
Our bodies no longer mold like they did
Too careful, too calculated
The cold warns away the sting
So I wander far away from your reach
And hope one day our hold will loosen
Because it’s too late now to go back
I can’t give you what you want
And I mourn the moment I could
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