I didn't have sex till 17.
and that was with a steady boyfriend.
and I made him wait, and wait, and wait.
Then there was a bit of a self-induced orgy of sorts.
I went a little crazy, but eventually reigned myself in.
All was steady.
Th(more)en I began to feel some kind of need. A hunger.
I need to conquer and subsequently fuck them over.
You have emotions? Perfect. Let me destroy them.
When will it stop? I said at 20, but that guy has come and I'm sure he'll be gone soon. Used.
But where's the benefit?
Whatever. I'm young.
It doesn't matter.
Coffee or whiskey
It doesn't really matter at this point.
Days and nights muddled together
like a good Old Fashioned.
Words and thoughts
jumbled to the point of chaos.
(more) Twirled like an unkempt bed
lit by a sliver of morning light
escaping into your room.