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hugs & kisses

The lonely creature looks up from his meal. It has now been three winters without even seeing evidence of another of his kind. The food drips from his teeth, his having lost all need for decorum, gazing up with mouth gaping. His burning red eyes are sad, and the only life he's(more)

fiction | monsters | solitude

up until now

Up until now i was doing well in regards to food cravings.
Up until now, i was eating a balanced diet.
Up until now, I could consider the nutritional content of what I put in my mouth, consider its effects on my health.
Then...
I see this website...and the(more)

diets | food | advertis...

dog hair

Dear, you have Charlie all over you...

I know, but perhaps it will just look like marled wool...and honestly, this is our son's day - noone will be looking at us.
(more)

animals | travel | children

gullible

Mathematically speaking, I believe our gullibility is directly proportional to the desire for what we're being told to be true. Therefore, it is not a fixed quality within a person as what they desire and do not desire are shifting constantly.
I believed with all my heart that if I(more)

magical ... | beliefs | hope

outburst

On a day like any other day I went to my volunteer gig in my 14 yr old car, wearing a somewhat ragged spring dress with a sweater to ward off the wind. Standing outside the door, I saw frightened people - frightened people coming towards the door and frightened people(more)

death th... | abortion | fear

clenched fist

She has a clenched fist to the world at all times - it seems life is a battle every step of the way - a battle to get the perfect housing, a battle for perfect food, a battle for perfect respect. Because it is war, there are no rules, and(more)

hostilit... | work

no hope

Even when there is nothing to be done to extend life, no way to cure the disease, remove the lesion, fix the hole, there is hope. The object of the hope changes, but the hope persists. I've been heard to say one can't chose one's miracles. I believe that - however, there(more)

hope | miracles

counting coins

I'm scrounging coins in the sofa, frantically counting them. I need $1.89 for a can of cat food. I know if I don't find it and she gets wind of it, cases of cat food will land on my door. My feline friend is unfazed by this frenzy, curled up on my(more)

money | values | friendsh...

have not been there

I have not been there - lying on the table, my underwear removed in a backless hideous gown made of unidentifiable fibers. The closest I've come was having my wisdom teeth pulled under 'twilight' anesthetic. I begged the oral surgeon to do it under local alone, being terrified of sedation. (more)

Surgery | medicine | memoir

race is on

Walking past the granite walls listing major donors I spy myself in the reflection - still looking good - a tall, distinquished (hair loss means nothing in successful men) white man in scrubs and stained white clogs. Adjusting myself, I walk on - I have a case - 4 vessel(more)

Cardioth... | medicine

do I have to?

For the sake of all that is holy - I've had 5 of the 6 cycles of this treatment - I don't care even remotely if this cancer returns as one thing this experience has taught me is that I will NEVER sign up for this again - so(more)

Cancer | chemothe... | lymphoma

changing seasons

Thou art the Beginning of all, Creatrix, Protectress, and Destructress that Thou art
Written about the Hindu Goddess, Kali, about whom I know next to nothing except the briefest of summaries stating she is a Goddess of Destruction and Rebirth. Symbolizing the death of one life so another can(more)

death | change | comfort

wanderlust

The fortune cookie reads: You desire to discover new frontiers. It's time to travel. It does stimulate my wanderlust- I have been very fortunate travel wise in my life, but a trip to Zambia in 2009 was such a highlight that I am excited to return to Africa somehow. I also lust(more)

travel | memoir

watermelon seeds

The best thing that boyfriend ever did for me (besides move over 2000 miles away) was introduce me to Screamin Jay Hawkins. Actually, it was a friend of his who introduced me to Screamin Jay - of course, I don't mean physically introduce me to Mr. Hawkins, but musically. If you've(more)

Music | exes | humor

baptism of sorts

My mother and father, in a not so rare example of poor judgement, decided to fly me to England to be baptised in the church my mother and her sisters were baptised in. I believe my maternal grandmother was wedded there as well. I say bad judgement because that meant a(more)

family | Catholoc... | humor

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