Spring in the air and the flowers are blooming. The earth is getting warmer and warmer. The sun takes longer to set making the days longer. As the weather gets nicer it time to cut the grass and say good to cold weather.
Where are you?
Why are you gone?
How did this happen?
I already know the answers but I choose not to listen to that little voice in my head.
You can't be dead!
(more) You are not an angel!
April 22 is just a date.
Why do I keep lying to myself?
Every night is harder to sleep.
Where are you Mom?
Can you see me?
Are you proud of me?
I love you Mom.
R.I.P 11/18/69-04/22/15 (less)
the holidays are nearing, all the plans are being made without you. you put up all the walls so no one will know what you feel. but slowly as the holidays come closer. the walls start to crack and crumple till its all rumble. you think no one will(more) notice but they do they see everything because now you are as exposed as you think you are and you can't stop the tears. so you try your hardest to gather up the piece but the damage is already done. (less)
your expectaions are to high for me to reach even if i stand on the tip of my toes. i'm the one that tries and dosnt stop till she gets it right. i'm the one that is going to go to collage and make you proud but your expectaions(more) are so high you cant even see then when using a telescope. But since you left i no longer care about your expecations all i care about is me and my goals to be the best me that i can be :) (less)
regret is a very powerful word to use in the English language. it hurts me to say that I regret ever meeting you because that would be a lie. how we meet was wonderful and nice. The time spent together was a precious gift at the moment. But now I(more) regret ever having you in my life. you ruin the good times with the venom in your voice that I never heard till now (less)
the cold wind blowing through the air slowly nipping at your nose. the numb feeling in your hands as the days get colder and colder. winter must be comming if you can slowly see your breath more and more. if winter is comming the snow will soon follow and(more) so will the hoilday lights poring out of every house on the street. (less)
I must be an isomniac because i stay up all night trying to figure you out. I over think about what i'm going to and how i'm going todo it... why cant i just stop thinking and sleep... i"m afraid to sleep because i'm afraid if i close my(more) eyes i will see his face above my own taking my life away with his bare hands. no matter how happy i am or how much i try to forget about Josh. he's still there lurking in thr corner of my thoughts. But he;s not the only one... there are these girls at school that used to be my friends and now they hate my guts. My boyfriend and i agree that i should just ignore them but's hard when they force you to feel their presence. This is why i am an insomniac because i feel like the whole world is spinning and my mind wont stop till it's 5am and i have to get ready for school. (less)
life has not been very good for me and it's not ever going to be. I have cried my share of tears and pain to the point of no return. I have reach the lowest of the low but some how I always manage to carry on. but carrying(more) on is harder than just saying the words you have to actually believe yourself. (less)
In the very back of my mind there is a secret box that holds all the things that I regret the most. But that is not the only thing it holds it holds all the good times that I had with ex friends. Every bad word that was tossed(more) my way every since I was born. All the blood and wounds I witness. All the times I would sneak out of the house and get drunk with my mom. All the memories of my family. All my fears and secrets. All these things are all locked away in that box. All these things don't make me..me and I love who I am but if I keep dwelling on these silly things that are locked away in that box I will never truly move on and be happy with myself and those around me. (less)
i fly close to the water dogging left and right trying to not to get seen by the predators that lurk from the dark corners of this beautiful lake that i call home. i cloak myself and hide so the others don't know that i'm the easy prey for them(more) to feast upon with there hungry eyes. i know you cant fly yet you still think your better than me just because you can eat all day and not gain a pound. well you might be a "prince" in a fairy tail story book but you are nothing but a slimy and disgusting person on the inside and soon enough your true colors are going to catch up to you. so don't come crying to me when the girl of your dreams cant chance you back to that handsome prince you once were (less)
what we had was great and i trusted you like a daughter should. then you chose him over me and left me on a corner to cry. i dont know why i cry late at night for you. My heart was decisive by your face love and soft smiles.(more) Now i realized there was really nothing between us. And there is never going to be again. (less)
i plug into all my electronics and let my real self go... i see my body just sitting mindless watching tv and eating chips... why cant i stop this awful cycle.. were is my turn off button? where is my power going to? i just want to shut down(more) and sleep but my mind still wanders till sleep is no longer an option. so i sit back up and re plug myself back in this evil cycle (less)
why should i save myself when you cant.why cant you just forget about him and run away with me. i would take care of you and i would never hurt you like he did. why cant you save yourself so you can save me from the future suffring that i(more) am now facing. why couldnt you save yourself for the both of us. (less)