"BY SUNRISE" (topic changed)
The moment you walked out the door, an ill-planned text message escaped my fingers, "Should probably stop talking for a while until I can get my shit together." "Ok kid," you replied. We both knew it was one of my many feeble attempts to preten(more)d to be strong and that your absence from my life wouldn't make my idle time feel more empty. Hours pass by and I hear nothing from you - radio silence.
I meet with an old friend for cocktails and alcohol inevitably wipes out every bit of my inhibition. I dial your number because I am weak. The time we spend together is magical. We are intertwined and you fill my head with sweet lies that send my heart down a path of disillusionment and my mind has no choice but to follow.
The clock approaches 4:00 am and I tell you I must go. You begged me to stay the night with you despite your refusal to feel anything for me aside from what you've termed "friendship". "You're tired and you've had a long night. It's better for you to stay now and leave in the morning." Begrudgingly, I agreed and assured you that by sunrise I'd be gone.
Eventually the alcohol wears off. The cold hand of reality strikes me in the face and screams out to me, "Wake up!" If he doesn't care now, he never will. It is better to escape before he pulls you back in with his gentle touch and empty words. Now is the time to go.
Bound by a tie that I cannot sever
Ignorance is bliss, but nothing lasts forever
You captivate my mind yet I refuse to hold on
Though it kills me to leave this way, by sunrise I'll be gone (less)
It's funny how the tables have turned
I find myself on the other side of the chase
To be the one wanting and not the wanted
I'm lost and unfamiliar to this strange place
Frustrations arise as I beg to understand
(more) The emotions I've kept pent up inside of me seethe
Disillusioned by an unrequited love that lacks explanation
Like a fish out of water, I am unable to breathe
Afraid to let your guard down
You refuse to show how much you care
And our love is trapped in limbo
Fish out of water - there's no air (less)