"He was having an affair."
He was having an affair and that was why dad couldn't live with them any more.
She, being younger, didn't understand. Didn't he love them?
That was why she spent her whole adolescence without a father.
He was in a flat in the other
(more) side of town, her mother said. Had his own family. Kids, even.
He slipped out of her mind eventually.
She went to college, got a job. Didn't think once about her father.
She got the phone call when she was sitting in her apartment watching TV.
It was one of those karmatic things, you know. Car crash. Drunk driver out of nowhere.
Her father was in critical condition in the hospital, and they wanted her to come down and be with him.
In the background, she could almost - almost - feel fate fixing its eye on her.
She got there. He was laid out on a bed, broken, shattered. They'd put his arm in a bucket next to the bed (it was a very low-budget hospital).
He didn't wake up.
She didn't cry.
And she left when the monitor's insistent, gentle beeping changed to a long, heartrending tone.
The next day, her mother stopped by her apartment and awkwardly dropped off a bag of letters.
She didn't understand until her mother mumbled something about them being from her father and how she hadn't had the heart to give them to her.
So she took them and didn't say a word.
And when she went to her father's apartment later that day to pick up any of his effects, she found it was a simple one-man flat. There was no family here. And on the table was a photograph.
Of her and her mother.
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